Tuesday, March 06, 2007
don't fade away.. please.
ahem.
i know this has been a rocky relationship from the start. i knew how difficult this would be from the very first time i laid eyes on you.
and i blame myself. i've been... erratic in my attentions. mood-swingy. and yes, i admit it-- remember all those nights i never checked in on you? yeah. it's true, what you suspected.
i've been neglecting you for far too long... and you're punishing me for it now. i've been throwing all my effort into you these past few days, hoping you'll become less difficult, less impenetrable-- but no. you refuse to reveal your secrets.
come on. haven't we known each other for months now? i adore you. i know every inch of you-- i remember names for each tiny repulsive bit of you that most people can't even pronounce, let alone come to love.
microb, i love you. why won't you love me back? i'll even try to remember the names of all those bastard children you fathered with pharmaco-- doxyxycline, mebendazine, proguanine-- by the way, that slut's the one i've been spending my late nights with recently. surprised? don't worry. i still don't know anything about her, and don't ever want to. but i'll do it for you. just-- just love me back. help me pass m2. goddamnit. ARGGGGH
ps: screw romance, i already have my share of destructive-spiral mutually-abusive relationships with my medical textbooks
+ fictions&fires
11:38 PM
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plangere, latin: to strike, or to lament.
in the depth of winter i finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer.
--albert camus
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to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best night and day to make you like everybody else means to fight the hardest battle any human being can fight and never stop fighting.
-- ee cummings
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