magnificently unprepared/for the long littleness of life.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
on the unbearable heaviness of being me
my dad brought back teh tarik and reverso ice cream from island creamery! hurrah! gleefully shoveling crap into my mouth now. and its 2am! god, what debauchery. what will i come up with next? hedonistic 5 am mugging sessions with-- gasp-- chocolate milkshakes. positively scandalous. spread the word.
finished an excellent book today. its called "the fit" and its touching and sad and really funny as well. also another kazuo ishiguro book called "when we were orphans". was very tempted to borrow kafka on the shore but wtf! its 15 bucks! no thank you. i've already read it once anyway. very very surreal. and very good. but windupbird is better.
chuck palahniuk's lullaby is nowhere to be found. grumps.
watched 3 kings today. i really have to tear myself away from bittorrent and the computer. totally unproductive day spent smashing cars-- burnout 3 rocks-- and killing a crazy tentacled monster (ninja gaiden is f-ing hard) and studying like 10 pages of b+l git. bleah off to read more git and then i shall accomplish a pelvic thrust! 30 min of concentrated pelvis! 20% more pelvis for the exact same price!
goodnight.
Last Cigarette: errm that stuffs bad for you
Last Alcoholic Drink: vodka mudshake. just finished
Last Car Ride: yesterday
Last Kiss: good joke! haha!
Last Good Cry: wow.. 2 months ago i think
Last Library Book: starship troopers-- heinlein
Last book bought: south of the border, west of the sun-- murakami
Last Book Read: the fit --philip hensher
Last Movie Seen in Theatres: dreamship surprise!
Last Movie Rented: woah long time ago. midnight sun. this damn good tortured detective thing
Last Cuss Word Uttered: f-- this morning. i hate waking up
Last Beverage Drank: ice water
Last Food Consumed: island creamery :] and grapes
Last Crush: 165 bus at medicine bus stop. people just cant move to the back properly
Last Phone Call: yesterday night
Last TV Show Watched: whose line is it anyway :D
Last Time Showered: 11pm
Last Shoes Worn: my pumas :]
Last CD Played: wah. burnt: sigur ros' takk. nonburnt would be rhcp's by the way
Last Item Bought: system of the world :]
Last Download: ooh haha cant keep track. currently on southpark, fightclub, cube zero
Last Annoyance: smelling really gross thanks to the heatstroke-inducing temperatures. hence the shower
Last Disappointment: im too stupid to understand git
Last Soda Drank: pepsi! pepsi love!
Last Thing Written: some stupid scribbles on the margin of b+Lgit
Last Key Used: a major? singing daniel bedingfield
Last Words Spoken: nights mummy :] me good girl
Last Sleep: 2pm to 7 pm today
Last Ice Cream Eaten: tehtarik!
Last Chair Sat In: brown fabric chair cos im typing in it now
Last Webpage Visited: blogger. what a dumb question
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plangere, latin: to strike, or to lament.
in the depth of winter i finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer.
--albert camus
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to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best night and day to make you like everybody else means to fight the hardest battle any human being can fight and never stop fighting.
-- ee cummings
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